Easter - yes, a few weeks later....

Here's some photos from Easter weekend. We had a blast coloring and subsequently looking for eggs.






I can't get my pictures to load from my phone, but I'll get them up soon. :)

The October Garden

If you were zinnia, still bright
in the October garden and I the last
orange cosmos.
If you were catmint blue
draping yourself over the cinder block wall
and I the weed coming up through gravel.
If you were the bamboo pole, listing
under the weight of late green tomatoes
that will never ripen now, and I
the frayed string that binds them.
If you were heavy purple grapes dangling
over the canted railing and I the feasting
thrush.
If you were summer's echo
in yellow coreopsis and I the tall sedum,
autumn-flushed.
If you were the sun
breaking slant over that little grove of aspens
across the street,
if you were hummingbird's
quick wing,
if you were winter coming on
or the studious worm and I the turned
earth, the patch of moss beneath an oak,
the oak's sharp-edged leaf ready to crackle
underfoot, the white-throated sparrow's
familiar three descending notes in a minor
key,
oh,
if only I were sometimes
you and you were me.

It's Official.

I do NOT have cancer.

For those of you who were wondering what the crap was going on, I found a lump and was extremely worried that I might have cancer.

A little background...

I am adopted. I have known this since I was a baby. I have tried to contact my birthmother from time to time in my life, all to no avail. I even stated that I just needed to know some medical history, not become one of those Maury Povich "Successful Reunion" stories. F that. I just wanted to know what I, and my children, are in for. Health-wise anyhow.

Dramatic as it sounds, it's not so bad. I don't care that I don't know her. She was young and either couldn't take care of me or did not want me or both. No big. I've had 27 years to deal, and I have.

Until I found that lump.

Over the past two weeks, it had grown, so I was even more worried about it. I have since found out that had it stayed the same size, it would've been more to worry about. Little did I know. Sheesh.

Anyhow, I had a mammogram, ultrasound, and biopsy yesterday and it's Prognosis: Negative. (I couldn't help the Seinfeld reference)

I couldn't be happier! It's the biggest stress off my back that you could imagine.

There's still a lingering suspicion there in my mind, because, if you don't know me well enough, I'm a HUGE worrier. H-U-G-E. So, in my steadfastness, I will continue to monitor it.

I was told that it's an infected/clogged mammary gland that has probably been clogged/infected for quite some time, as I was unable to breastfeed either of my kids. Probably hereditary. Stupid heredity.

Anyhow, everything is back to normalcy on the homefront. Thanks for the support, even though you didn't know what the crap was going on. :)

I moved Duck Hunt on my blog.

For the 1 of you that cares :)

I added Duck Hunt to my blog.

It's fun. You should play it.